Waiting

Waiting is the hardest thing to do, regardless of the suspected outcome being positive or negative. Waiting for test results is difficult, especially since the outcome can go one of two ways - good or bad. Waiting to make a change in life is even more difficult, since making the change could ultimately result in immediate improvement of one's situation. I am waiting to make a life change - a relocation that will result in progression. It is difficult to wait for this. However, it is necessary. There are steps that I must take to get there, right?

What do you think?
Should one wait to make sure that all their ducks are in a row before jumping overboard, even if the end result will more than likely be awesome, regardless of whether waiting occurs? I think so, but then sometimes, I wonder if waiting is simply putting things off in a manner that might end up with the changes never occurring.

In this situation - moving to a new state, I believe that preparation and planning are necessary for success of the overall journey. There's just a part of me that is dying to be at the culmination point - the time when I can start progressing forward without lying in wait. Is a year really that long? A year's nearly past since my life flipped upside down and look at me now. I'm happy, excited about my future, and enjoying each day as if it were my last. Surely the year to follow can't be any less enjoyable than the last. I think the biggest part that's getting me is that I just know its the right move... literally. So, naturally, I want to have it now, as a result of living in a world centered upon instant gratification.

I seek the ability to build up to the point of gratification and predict that in doing so, the end result (gratification) will be much more rewarding.

“The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.”
--Flora Whittemore

Arrogance in Customer Service

As I look at the world around me, I ponder the permeation of arrogance I find. A time long, long ago existed where people relied on one another, more fully comprehending that such reliance was necessary for survival. That time has long past and we now survive in a world where not a soul needs another and the journey is primarily about greed and personal advancement, even at the expense of others sorrows. For instance, ever tried to call customer service about a complaint and been greeted by a representative that speaks as though they're looking down at a measly peon? This happens to me all the time. I have found that sometimes the complaint isn't worth the stress it takes to make. When there is money involved, however, what choice do we have?

I don't have much to say because the arrogant attitudes are so enveloped by society that talking about it won't even chip the iceberg. Simply, I wish people could realize that it's not real power to work in customer service. You may have the power to deny me information, the power to speak over me like you're somehow superior to me. You might even have the right to hang up on me when I lose my cool and go from frustrated to angry, and you could even deny me the right to a supervisor because "they aren't available" when you know damn well they are. But what you don't have is real power. These things you control are merely the representation of a person so suppressed that you don't have anything going for your job except that you have no ability to make a difference... People like this should know, the world would continue to spin without your position... you don't really make that big of a difference unless you take the time to advocate for others; it takes effort to make a difference.

Such people would suffer and perish in a world where people depended on others, like that far off time from long ago. Either that, or they'd be eliminated due to intolerance.


They don't really smile while they work.

Consequences + Impermanence

Life is about consequences. Every action we take has some sort of consequence: "the effect, result, or outcome of something occurring earlier" (Dictionary.com, 2010). Some are positive, some are negative, others good or bad. However, living in fear of consequence is a silly approach to life. This falls in line with the fact of impermanence; nothing is every fully permanent or enduring, but rather is transitory (Dictionary.com, 2010). So in effect, impermanence is the result of consequence. Thus, one should learn to accept that their actions will ultimately result in a follow up reaction, and that this consequence may lead to impermanence in a given situation, or rather will result as such.

My life has taught me vast lessons about these two things recently and I have finally begun to realize that while some of the consequences I've endured as of late seemed negative or bad, effectually they have been some of the greatest blessings I could ever have stumbled upon. I have been given the chance to recognize that what is now missing is not lost from this life, but rather, these aspects have served their final purpose, leading me to an array of new choices, new beginnings. Fortunate are those that can see the wonderful world surrounding them, regardless of size or activity, for the quality that really exists in each moment.


"Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can." ~Danny Kaye (QuoteGarden.com, 2010).



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Failing Friendships

Today is kind of a sad day for me. I just wrote a letter to someone I thought would always be a part of my life, a constant. For so many years, she's been my person, the one I could turn to with anything and end up smiling, even if things were still less than preferable. It's interesting how the common quote below comes about and surprises you from left field, with people that you never thought would be on the leaving side...

“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.” - Unknown

She was someone I thought would stay for a long while... someone I could grow with throughout stages of life I've yet to encounter. I was wrong, I suppose. Why is it that some times people just decide to make cuts and not even let those not making the cut why it is so? This has happened to me a few times in life... I just can't seem to figure out what it is that I do or don't do that causes this to be true. My heart aches today... for the loss of an incredible friendship, a sister, a great portion of my heart and soul. I'm going to miss her, but I must stop trying to figure it out and move on with my life. I love her and wish it could be different, but I can't sit around waiting for convenience to allow me a place back in her life.

“Value yourself. The only people who appreciate a doormat are people with dirty shoes.”