No one ever really knows...

Sometimes I wonder how it all works out in the end, but then, in the end, none of us are even here anymore to see how it all worked out... I guess its not something to find concern in then, is it? Even so, I find it in my nature to ponder the future, the events to come, in tandem with those past... I find them a balance beam, upon which one end upholds the future and the other holds down the past; will the teeter totter of the beam's converging forces cause both to spin out of control? Maybe, I guess IN THE END, no one ever really knows.

But then again, I do often ponder things, anything really, without any course or direction specifically, and oft times for no real reason at all. I suppose its just the wandering mind housed within my dull skull, seeking out curiosities without any honest purpose, but rather for the sake of doing so. Sometimes, though, I wonder about things that matter, I yearn to know more about what is, and why its so. But I guess its all fairly pointless to concern oneself with... because in the end, when no one's here, no one will know anything at all.

Maybe my desire to know and my wandering curiosities relate to the measures of time I spend alone, seeking my own soul... Perhaps I'm trying to figure out something else entirely, something unknown even to me, yet perpetuated so deeply within my mind, body, and soul, that I will strive to attain such knowledge until the end of time, where, as mentioned before, no one really knows anyhow... Certainly, though... I'll definitely keep on trying.

Right now I know its late and I'm tired, yet unwilling to shut my eyes. I'm wishing you were here with me, telling me whats on your mind. I know there are things to discuss in there, topics of desire, but again, the time is always trying to bury such thoughts with conflicting schedules and minimal sharing... the yearn inside to know, the curiosities of my mind, of your mind, of their mind, of the Earth, the World, and the Universe... I suppose are foreign to me... things that not now, nor in the end, will I ever come to know.